It hurts ~

Dear Diary,

 Im happy today...

Super Happy ....My friends is happy today...

First..my friend engage today...

Second..Malam berinai my friend..

But suddenly...today i got a phone call

a phone call ...

that make my heart suddenly feel weird..

I know this voice but i cant tell who...

Then...suddenly ...i got message...

Yes it was him...

It was bitter...but im HAPPY...

I dont know...

But suddenly he stop...

Later i online in twitter...

Im super happy online after get my henna also in hand..

I open up my FB

Go to find him...

Im so happy at first..it was weird but this is what i feel...

Why im happy when im hurting too much in this  year and half..

But suddenly get mad..

He never changed...

Im hurts..and yet you are not change anything..

Waht you should do to make i believe that u are not hurting me anymore..

Make me believe i can trust u again...

I hurt okay..i hurt with that words..

Simple words but make me hurts...

Like u making fun of me.. 

"Setia macam takda lelaki lain"

What u think im FOOL coz waiting you..

You know what i feel for all this way...

Hey did u know you making me fobia to love again..

Dont just say sorry and try to comeback again..

It was not enough to delete all of my BAD feeling...

And please dun making fun coz i was waiting for you..

Indeed im still thinking you..but like it was my nightmare..

\But i do think..

Prove me i was wrong..

prove me that my feeling is WRONG

Prove me that I can trust you again...

Even not my special one but please prove it was worth knowing you~

Sincerely,

Sida